Are you a procrastinator? Or a daydreamer?
In the timing before writing this post, I was trying to tick off a long list of tasks I needed to complete and it got me thinking. Then daydreaming. And procrastinating. Then sidetracked.
I started to have another thought, opened a new window on my browser, started browsing over there, then I wanted to change the track of music I was listening to, then I thought actually, I’m beginning to get a little hungry so I started browsing Pinterest for some inspiration… I think you can see where I’m headed with this. I thought this deserved a post all on its own, as I’m sure I’m not alone in this feeling!
It made me realize that the same is true in meditation. How many times have you tried to sit still for a moment to just concentrate on your breath? And in that moment, been distracted by all the other things you need to accomplish to the point where you couldn’t really focus and just gave up.
This happens to me all the time. I have always been a procrastinator then scrambled to do everything at the last minute. Day dreaming comes easy because all the thoughts in my mind tend to run away with my imagination until I forget what I was even thinking about in the first place. Let me assure you that this is normal. Your mind wanders. The key is in trying to bring your mind back to focus and back to your breath.
In this day and age, with all the technology surrounding us, the constant need of keeping up with social media, it’s no wonder it can be hard to break away from everything and just be still.
As I’ve come back to rooting my own meditation practice never has this rang more true for me. In that, I have come to accept that this is what tends to happen. My mind will wander. I will think about what I need to do, what I haven’t done, what’s hanging over me.
You make the time to stop and just be and grant yourself peace and quiet. You make the time to focus your attention away from all your worry and then the second you do this, it all comes to the forefront of your mind. Stress and anxiety seems to bubble up to the surface once you’ve finally allowed yourself the time to separate from it all. It’s very ironic.
But then, a sort of calm washes over. Acceptance.
I reach acceptance that I have anxieties in my life, that there are things sitting in my subconscious, there are things I need to take care of, prepare for, be mindful of. I struggle to keep the focus of my breath while concentrating on tackling my mental list of all these things that suddenly have made themselves so important.
But with acceptance, I find more ease in bringing my wandering mind back to where it needs to be. To focus, to concentrate, to relax and clear my mind, bring awareness back to my body and breath. With acceptance, we can seek the change we’re seeking and move forward.
Eventually, everything becomes quiet and calm and finally, I can meditate.